Hi everyone,
I haven't been on this site for two months which has been a real achievement for me. Last year i spent over six months with severe panic and OCD about my relationship....however before Christmas we decided to get things back on track and i was really happy and started to feel more relaxed. However, about two weeks ago my boyfriend was in a bad mood and we started talking about things and whereas i had felt things had gone back to how things were when they were good, he said he felt things were getting there and how he felt uncomfortable etc so this made me suddenly feel uneasy and i did feel unsettled for a couple of days. In reality i know he is entitled to feel all the feelings he talked about after what my panic and anxiety did too us last year but it is hard to hear and has definitely made my head busy ever since then.
The last three days have been bad for me and although i am trying to keep the panic to a minimum, the OCD thoughts just wont seem to stop. I guess i just wanted to have some advice. Is it normal to have a relapse? HOw can i turn off these thoughts now they are buzzing again?
The thoughts i am having are like - i feel uncomfortable about how i like to dance when we are out and he can feel uncomfortable so i then make myself feel uncomfortable and then get anxiety about how we arent right for each other because he is boring.....i link any past situation in my head and fixate on it, and start comparing sentences of speech he has said with others, my head will fixate one day on how his voice sounds and the next on how tall he is.....it is making me really upset this week as i really love him and dont want these thoughts. Please help
Thanks alot for listening
Hellbelle