Hi. I'm 8 months into a flare up of anxiety that has now been diagnosed as OCD. I have had a horrible few months at work, but I kept going regardless. My manager has been supportive on paper, but in reality has no comprehension of this illness. His communication is limited to talking mto me when I haven't done something. The latest was a challenge to me ignoring a text he sent me when I was on hols. He didn;t give up and phoned and like a fool I answered. Panic attack within 10 minutes of that. We.ve had two falling outs in a week and I;ve now got HR involved. But the decision to do this has sent my anxiety crazy and my OCD thought about knives are back. Tomorrow night I am home alone with my daughter and I am scared. I have been making myself sick all week too. I want to bang my head against something to take the thoughts away. I am prone to worry about knives and what harm I could cause.I'm out tomorrow and worrying I will panic in public. My husband won't be with me to help.
To anyone who read this thanks for listening to me, if anyone has any words on inspiration I would love a morale boost.