I'm sorry I just really can't cope with it. Nothing has gone my way for some time and any positive has been to small to make me feel better than more than a week.
This week:
*Today I had a date cancelled on me (again!)
*Failed my driving test yesterday first attempt and made very few mistakes but one serious which failed me and if I never made it I'd have passed.
*Lack of jobs and money.
*Noisy neighbours and the urgency to move out.
*EVEN my seat broke tonight so that's £50 for a new office chair.
How I feel:
*Stressed.
*Very grouchy and moody.
*Down.
*Irritable and angry.
*Sad.
*Little things really annoying me, sounds, adverts anything.
Anybody reading my posts know it's one thing after another. Small things like going to a Football match is brief. Getting a career or job is bigger and more day to day. I'm angry and keep looking for dates but been cancelled on three times this week or it's fell through..I really should go and watch a DVD but I have a sense of urgency been single almost three years. So can't even go and watch a DVD as my determination is there.
I feel ready for the barrel..ready to go mad. There's been nothing "big" gone good for me in a while so there's no break so because I'm being let down and down and down every time I feel awful. Mixture of sadness and anger and frustration.
I don't know what's going on. I wish I was able to enjoy myself but I'm out of work, single and don't get out as much as I'd like other than walking the dog. Sad times.
(Tests rebooked but got to wait a bit..am I right to feel annoyed at life?)