Hi there.Alot of you know me and i am geting really low again.As some of you know i split with my husband four years ago next month.Since then i have been from one man to another,so many i have now lost count.I am now pretty sure i have a serious problem because i just cannot stop the cycle and its really affecting my health.I meet the most appalling men and i seem to have lost my judgement.I have contratced two st'ds already and i'm getting very frightened because i cannot see an end to it all.I tired having counselling earlier last year but i went straight back into my old behaviour and have been hurt dreadfully.You may ask why do i keep doing this to myself and i agree,you would think i could stop but i can't.Today i have been made to look like a stupid fool yet again.I can't even write what has happened.My only saving grace is that i will never get involved with a married man because of how i was torn apart by my husbands affair.My self esteem is at rock bottom now.I know what i have to do but i just cannot seem to stick to it.I cannot afford to see the previous counsellor i was seeing and the docs counseeling service is booked up for six months.I am at my wits end i really am.
Ali