Well i suppose to be at my Aunt's funeral this afternoon, i have been extremely anxious for the last week about it, i deceided i would go, but today i just cant go through with it....
My Mother said its okay its no problem, the thing is i would like to go and pay my respects but i know the effect it will have on me i think i am going to be sick or pass out and i will get so over emotional i just cant face it, family members may think i just dont care but that is not true, i care a hell of a lot, i just cant take the strain it puts me under and fear of breaking down infront of everyone.. I am not a bad person but i feel so guilty for not going...
Dan