Hi
I am 43 years old, 7 weeks pregant (first time) and badly tocophobic. When I found out I was pregnant I booked a termination so extreme was my fear. My husband begged me to see a doctor first to see if there was anything they could do and I agreed that I would. So on Friday I went to see a doctor and I explained how I was feeling (basically I am in state of high stress, not sleeping well, hardly eating, can't concentrate, feeling very very low) and she was actually quite nice. She asked if I had considered an elective c-section and I said I had but what chance would I have of getting one of those on the NHS. She said I had a good case and she would refer me to a consultant who was sympathetic. She said she would fax the letter on Monday marked urgent as my termination is booked for Friday. She took my mobile number and said that the consultant would call me. Well she hasn't called and I am in major panic mode, I want to cancel the termination but I can't unless I know for sure I can have that c-section. This is not a simple fear I have, it is a terror. I made the mistake of posting on a pregancy site and got told I was selfish and stupid and that C-sections were dangerous and there was no way I would get an NHS c-section, that I would be made to have counselling and then they would still say no. I don't know what to do. Do I trust the doctor that this consultant is sympathetic? I just want to see her asap to try and get this sorted out but she isn't calling me.