Hello, everyone. I've been reading through the Citalopram discussions here for a couple weeks now and thought I would post for the first time.
This is my second time on Citalopram. I was originally diagnosed with major depression during my 2nd year of university, back in 2002. I started seeing a psychiatrist through my school's insurance program and they first tried me on Remeron (Mirtazapine), which made things worse. I was switched to Zoloft (Sertraline) soon after, and promptly had a manic episode, followed by another depression. At this point my diagnosis ran "major depression, with manic tendencies", and I was put on the mood stablizer, Depakote. I had to drop out of university because my moods were getting unbearable and I couldn't make it to my classes. Fast forward to 2006, past a few more medication changes, suicide attempts, and stays in psychiatric hospitals, to when I was first put on Citalopram. And this was when things actually started improving.
I stayed on it for three years until June of 2009 when I figured I could taper off it and be free from medication forever. Alas, my depression and anxiety slowly started to creep back starting in December. It was so gradual I didn't realize it what was happening, or that it was getting so bad. Depression is a tricky thing in this respect. I live in an area where we get a lot of snow from December through March, so that wasn't helping my mood either. I eventually decided, after much resistance, to restart my Citalopram, on April 7th, 17 days ago.
Three days into starting a 20mg/day dose I could tell I had made the right move. My mood started to get lighter, and has been getting better since. I of course had all the usual side effects again upon starting it, but most of them have disappeared. I feel resigned at this point to the fact I may need to be on medication for a while yet. Since I don't have health insurance I can't really afford talk therapy, so that will have to come at a later date.
Anyway, I just wanted to share my experience. It took a while, and years of trial and error to find the right medication. But there is hope.
And thank you, No More Panic for being here. This is an excellent forum, and has given me much support.