sorry ppl its just me again needing a moan. had a terrible attack yesterday, this is the first time ive surfaced since then. been worring about an upcoming appointment as this time iv to try and go to them instead of them coming to me. i know theyve dealt with this before but sometimes i feel like they dont get how hard it is for me to go out, even the run up to it i start having panic attacks. was sitting yesterday trying to figure out how im going to manage and it hit me so hard. it was the worst attack iv had in a while, and i get them weekly. it brought to mind my biggest question, is all this worth it? i know im not the only person whos ever asked themselves this but sometimes i really start doubting that going and getting help was a positive. i do understand why i have to try and attend this appointment but i feel like their trying to 'flood' me, ive had this done to me before and the result was not pretty for me or them. i know getting over agrophobia and bad panic attacks isnt easy but i was wondering if anyone knew any coping techniques that i could try and use cos this apointment is in 2 weeks and im freaking out about it and its really getting me down x