Any one have any idea why women stop talking, when they dont like someone. You know how that feels to a socially anxious person, it feels horrible, miserable. When you say hi and some one turns the head away, its extremely painful. But I have to be meeting this lady atleast for 3 more days, it feels like entire life to me. How am I going to handle. I just want to find some avoidance ways to avoid the situation somehow. But books tell me avoidance is something that is not the correct solution, so I try to force myself to put myself through the situation. But it pains a lot. Should I avoid, or should I just push myself. But when I push myself, I get very dipressed and I cant do anything else other than think about it.
Today, I even started thinking why the hell am I living, with such a poor quality of life, with having to worry so intensly about something that is so small and which is just not an issue. I pull myself back together over and oever again and do something to improve, but it lasts only until the next episode of disaster, afterwhich I have to start working very very hard again to get back normal, and be able to do necessary duties properly.
Today, my problem has also been worrying about worrying. The word "disorder" makes me feel sick. This seems to have kick started a skick way of worrying too much about pulling myself back together.
Ram