She said I have generalised anxiety and high bp (but not dangerously high). As long as I continue to improve I should be ok in a couple of months. If symptoms get worse, I should go back, but she doesn't think I'm a candidate for medication.
However, I didn't tell her everything. I couldn't remember half of the stuff I wanted to tell her. She kinda caught me on a good day too... I just wanna know if it's normal to have extremely muted emotions? I really missed my ex recently... and regret that I couldnt save her from all the terrible things that happened to her. I know I feel this way, but it's not totally there in my head. I feel like I'm just going through the motions of loneliness and regret. Is this depression? I just wanna be myself again.
I realise I must be quite a mild case compared to many who have suffered extreme symptoms for years. I feel quite guilty for posting... And yet only last weekend I was ready to walk to the hospital at midnight because I felt so terrible. This thing is so weird!