Hello everyone,
I started taking citalopram 5 days ago. I was meant to start taking them 2 weeks ago but did not.
In fact, the first time I was on them, about 1 year ago, the tablets made me feel very suicidal so after two weeks I stopped taking them.
Now Im back on them. I do not feel suicidal and do not have many side effects apart from being lightheaded and tired. But then again, I was always tired before taking them.
Citalopram was prescribed to me because I suffer a lot from stress and anxiety. As well as feeling rather depressed.
I am not yet ready to tell any of you why I became so stressed but all I can say is that after 3 years of feeling the way I do I really need to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I know it will take time and effort but I wish the recovery could be faster.
I am trying to hold on to hope because hope is what I need.
I like it when my house is clean and tidy but lately I did not do much cleaning and that made me feel a hundred times worse. Yesterday I build up the energy to tidy up my kitchen. I feel so much better for it now. I guess it is going to be one step at a time.
I just do not feel like doing much. I think too much about the past and about what the future will be like. I spend so much time thinking that my life is passing me by. I know I should get up and do things but can hardly bring myself to do so.
I really hate being me. Being weak.
Lately, I have read a lot about citalopram. There are many good reviews and this has given me hope.
I found this forum by accident really. I really liked Psychopoet "survival guide".
I must say I am really glad to have found this forum and hope to find the extra help I need.
Thank you for reading me!
Hope x