Hi,

I joined nmp months ago and have found it useful to see that there are many of us living with these issues.

I am hyper-focused on health. My preoccupation is my liver. I guess because I feel guilty that I drink. I hate the idea of 'giving myself' a disease. But the guilt and the stress probably makes me drink more.

I am always looking at my eyes for signs of jaundice, feeling my liver area, googling etc. And I know that yellow bowel motions are a bad sign.

For the last few days ..... (explicit...) I have diarrhea, which is yellow.
So, I really have to force myself to stop googling for other symptoms.
I am going to wait for a few more days and then go to the dr if nothing changes.

BUT....good news....I am also doing a course on mindfulness, and that is a really positive thing. Also, I have decided to give up alcohol, whether i have an issue or not. I've been off for a month or 2 before, and found it OK.

Finally, thanks for having such a great community here. This is the first time I have ever put my issues across on the web.