I hope everyone had a good bank holiday? Well, for those of you that have been following me, yesterday we met up with friends and went to the narrow boat show up in Crick. Apart from the worst stomach ache ever which I presumed was down to the Cit, I had a brillaint day. No panicking, no anxiety apart from just beofre we met up.
Maybe we shouldn't have stayed over the night I don't know, but I made the mistake of having a beer and then one glass of wine with my dinner. It made me so anxious, that from 3 am I was awake the rest of the night with worry.
This morning I put on a brave face untill we got in the car to go home, I felt so bad I couldn't drive then proceeded to cry, a 52 year old man crying for nearly the whole journey home, I mean WTF?
The rest of my day has been awfull, I fell asleep on the sofa and woke up with the most awfull headache, I've tried to watch TV but can't concentrate as I have so much adrenalin rushing through my body, I have this terrible feeling of doom though I don't know why.
I keep going dizzy and just feel crap, I can't even spell properly and keep having to read over what I've written. This is my 3rd attempt at coming on here to write this thread as I forgot how to start one and couldn't remember what to do. I can honestly say this is my worst day since starting on Citalopram on the 25th May 2010. I think I'll remeber that day for the rest of my life.
You've told me that it get's better with time, surely it can't get worse than this can it?