My granny died this morning. She has been so unwell for months and now she's finally free but I never once got to see her while she was unwell and now I don't get to say goodbye to her. I live about an hour and a half drive away and even though I've made a few attempts I can't even get close to half way there without screaming to turn back and go home. Feel really guilty cos I can't be there to support my mum. All I want to do is dose up with something like horse tranquillisers and get there and attend the funeral.