Hello everybody!
After 6 months on 40mg of citalopram (and a couple of months of 20mg before that) I'm halving my dose. It's the second day and so far I haven't had any side effects - except perhaps being a little more jumpy than usual.
I haven't thought about dying for weeks and that evil voice telling me to hurt myself is silenced. I'm actually happy. It's unbelievable but true. I have survived suicide, and I'm well equipped to help anyone who has suffered something similar to me.
So chin up - a few months after a terribly low point in your life, you can be springy and happy and enthusiastic for long periods of time. You just need to work at it. Good luck everyone.