Oh my good golly Gosh!
It's been nearly a year since I last posted and over over 16 months since I started the Lyrica!
Sorry its been so long, but I have this weird thing whereby if I'm not feeling anxious and doing ok I have to stay away from any kind of anxiety websites, books, etc. I think it just acts as a reminder of what happened and starts up my old 'getting anxious about being anxious' thing!
So whats happened? No more seizures since July last year which is excellent. The anxiety is so much better its untrue, I've also stopped getting the persistant headaches and visual disturbances. And I put this down to one major factor! I QUIT MY JOB!
Once that monkey was off my back it was like a huge weight was gone and I recovered a lot more rapidly.
Not to say it was plain sailing though, it was most certainly not. I didnt manage to get another job till the beginning of August which started stressing me again and my anxiety started to twitch, I do now have another job but without being snobbish it's like once I was the manager of a company, now I'm the cleaner, but it pays! And I got my driving licence back and I've been back driving nearly 2 weeks. I was driving when I had my breakdown and the anxiety got too much, so I'm trying to change my thinking again as I'm getting a little nervous the more I drive, my use of Propanolol has increased but its very much as and when now. But it'll come together eventually.
What the past years events have taught me is that the Pregabalin certainly helped, but it didnt cure it, I had to look at the outside stresses and problems that were causing my anxiety and change it. I havent had to have the Pregabalin increased!
And hows the Pregabalin, well I still have the dry mouth, thats never gone away, its a pain but now I'm used to taking a drink everywhere. It makes the effect of any alcohol I drink super strong so I'm almost tee-total. The getting dizzy and feeling a bit off if I dont take it on a full stomach or just before eating is still there, and yes on occasions I can eat to bursting.
But it's all about management, which is important with any meds.
I do still have trouble with word finding occasionally or saying the wrong word, but nowhere near as much, and I'm not entirely convinced its all down to the Pregabalin as it is too any memory problems caused by having seizures. Both the word finding and short term memory issues have increased over the years.
Am I cured? No, will I ever be? I hope so, but maybe not entirely. But now I know what to do if there are issues again.
It can be done people, I did it! Loads of love, lots of hugs and thank you for listening!
Bel
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