Re: Support understand wanted...anxiety sufferer signed off work
well i went out today for about 4 hours which is good for me at the moment! went to my house share and picked up a few more things to take home, also went to the hairdressers, pub and sat in a field for a bit...all ok!
makes me think i needed the time off just to literally calm down a bit.
i guess my problem now is moving past it all.
unfortunately the guy that triggered this bout used to work with me so i have to see his name like all the time and also we've got joint friends etc.
also everytime i try and push past it i have the 'what if' symdrome, the kinda how can u move past this knowing that every relationship you've been in has resulted in complete emotional failure...how can u be confident and happy knowing that?
i really do struggle!
i have to hold onto the fact today though that i do feel better for getting out, otherwise i just lie on my bed all tense and what to get up really late and bed really early...basically trying to reduce the day down to nothing.
so i guess my discussion would be how to you move forward knowing a big weakness about yourself which knocks you? it's not as easier as sucking it up, it really brings me down as i feel a bit of a relationship/cool person leper! i just want to be comfortable in my own skin!
thanks in advance,
Sarah
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