Right now, I should be watching my 11 yr old daughter's school play. I did try, I tried very hard but did not make it. I drove round and round not being able to pass the busy traffic lights and worried about the traffic being heavier on the way back after the play, also worried about making a fool of myself infront of everybody. I was doing quite well but have taken a huge leap back in the last few weeks. I had an upset stomach all morning then was sick but still did try to go. What mother cannot go and watch her daughter's school play. I feel really down and cannot stop crying whilst typing this - I feel useless and have let her down yet again. There is nothing more I would have liked than to have got there and see the smile on her face. I tried telling myself nothing was scary, nothing was going to happen, I'd done it before and it was ok, listening to music, parked and just sat for a while but nothing could get me across the traffic lights, even though I had done it earlier in the day. I know she will say it doesn't matter but of course she wanted me there to watch her, what little girl has to put up with a mother that cannot do the simplest thing to make her happy.
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hiya dont you dare beat yourself up over this . i believe this will make you stronger to beat this .where abouts are you in the uk
