Success story... I faced my phobia head on!

[jill07]

Hi all,

Just thought I'd post my story, just to give you a bit of hope and let you see that you CAN conquer your fears, no matter how bad!

I have always had a severe medical phobia, and the thought of general anaesthetic and surgery was my main fear.... totally to the extreme.

So, finding out I needed to have my tonsils out asap in Nov09 sent me into a total panic.... spiralled into severe anxiety and depression. I did everything in my power to avoid the op - cancelled it, refused it etc etc. This resulted in many months of illness, which has left me in a very bad place now. I spent thousands on lasering in London under general anaesthetic which needless to say didnt work.

Things got so desperate, I was certain that I would end up collapsing and being taken into hospital if I didnt get my act together pretty sharpish.

So, took the plunge and went to see an ent specialist near home (couldnt see original one as I had messed him around too much!). He said yup, I needed that op.... scalpel, stitches, general anaesthetic the full shebang. Thankfully was understanding to my fears, and was very good and supportive. Scheduled surgery for 1 week later.

In that week I do not honestly know how I got through. I was constantly on edge, panic attacks, sheer terror the usual.

So, the morning of the surgery arrives..... and guess what? I finally realise that I can do ANYTHING that I set my mind to. So Im scared, so what? millions of others are too and they get through it!
I had diazepam at the ready for getting me to the hosp, and anaesthetist had a knock out pre med waiting for me, but I amazed myself totally by managing to decline both - faced that phobia head on, looked it in the eye and blew it a great big raspberry!!!!!!!!

Just wanted to share, because honestly, if I could get through that then there is hope for everyone with a debilitating phobia.... it doesnt need to rule your life and no matter what you may think you honestly CAN do it!!!

love to you all - phobias are a crippling horrible thing to have xxx

[~glowly worm~]

Hi jill,

Thats brilliant! Really hope you have a wonderfully calm free life from now on - you deserve it!

Warmly,

~ glowly ~

[katrinax]

Well done =)

[anthrokid]

Oh Jill that's an amazing story Great job, you were so strong! That is so inspiring to read, thank you so much for sharing your story with us!

[Fly away Katie]

I'm am also terrified of operations.. But well done! You did amazingly well. So proud of you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[paula lynne]

Well done, you are an inspiration!

[Bellakins]

Wow, that's amazing! Well done x

[muzicdejay]

Oh Jill that's an amazing story Great job, you were so strong! That is so inspiring to read, thank you so much for sharing your story with us!

OMG amieekid

Ive just read your blog...... I was in tears
How funny (not the anxiety etc) its just how you put things.
one thing i will say though, Ive just gone & SCRUBBED my shower curtain with bleach & all sorts, lol
Oh Thank you soo much, i havnt laughed like that for a while, thought id forgotten how!
Seriously guys, Miss a Prozac for a day & go read the blog! Think ill be smiling all day! x

[MidnightCalm]

OMG amieekid

Ive just read your blog...... I was in tears
How funny (not the anxiety etc) its just how you put things.
one thing i will say though, Ive just gone & SCRUBBED my shower curtain with bleach & all sorts, lol
Oh Thank you soo much, i havnt laughed like that for a while, thought id forgotten how!
Seriously guys, Miss a Prozac for a day & go read the blog! Think ill be smiling all day! x

I've read it too!
It's really interesting!

[margaret jones]

Well done you are a star