Male, 20. Suffering from Anxiety, and Depression

[flyers28]

Hello, everyone im a 20 year old male suffering from anxiety and depression. I recently had a fear that i am a homosexual...I hope thats not the case and that its just OCD. please feel free to send me a private message or tell me where i can post on the forums. thanks

[flyers28]

For the past few years i've been struggling with anxiety and depression. I've never been officially diagnosed with OCD but i've been known to dwell on things. About 4 days ago i had a panic attack (while under the influence of marijuana) about the the thought of me being a homosexual. Ever since that day my depression and anxiety worsened...I'll read about HOCD and feel ok for a few hours but then another thought will come to my mind and i'll start worrying again. My fear is that i was maybe subconsiciously gay and the weed revealed it to me. I'm 20 years old and never had a single sexual thought about a guy. But i cant shake this obsession. I havent had many relationships only but i did enjoy it. We went out for a year but never had any intercourse. A year ago i had intercourse with a girl i only just met. I didnt mind it but i couldnt ejaculate. So that stimulates my fear. Do you think im suffering my HOCD or am in denial? Before this obsession i also smoked marijuana which triggered a fear of death and i harped on that pretty much until this hocd problem

[diane07]

Hi flyers28

A huge warm welcome to nmp.

You'll get loads of advice and support here and make some lovely friends along the way.

Best wishes

[Vanilla Sky]

Hi and welcome to NMP Paige x