Hi All
Well after scanning some pages for a while have finally gotten up some courage to post.
About me - I'm 36, female happily married and now been hit with Anxiety. Have had one bad epsiode of it a couple of years ago and a couple of minor freezes inbetween, but last monday had some extreme work stress happening as well as coming off of a course of tramadol and being on my own all week seemed to trigger a panic attack. After that the anxiety hit!
Even after the stress was resolved the anxiety stayed and stayed.....and then woke up at 4am and went right into a panic attack. As it wasn't my first time I saw my GP 5 days ago and started 10mg CIT that day and am taking it first thing in the morning on an empty stomach as I am still struggling with food.
Anxiety seemed to get worse with trembling in arms and legs, Some headaches (and dashing to the loo - happy to know immodium still exists). Sleep was affected too at the start (although I slept a bit better last night). Today I feel a little better I think, things are a bit duller in the brain although still physically anxious and thughts still working a bit on overtime
Have found some massive anxiety in the mornings which calms through the day.
During the anxiety was very scared to eat - and still struggling at the thought of eating - then I worry about not ever being able to eat properly again. Am taking some food on board though (again easier in the evenings)
I guess I felt like a total failure at accepting medication as I am one of life's "fixers" and felt hopeless that I couln't "fix" myself.
Biggest fear I suppose is that I will never recover and I just want to be me again.
I have also been referred to our local Mental Health team to look into CBT and have contacted my counselling team at work and have an appointment on monday to see them.
Bit of an essay, but not really sure what to say or what to do.....
If anyone has anything to say to help I would always be grateful, about the pills, CBT and counselling or just to find a light and the end of this very scary and unexpected tunnel I find myself in. Never realised the fear of fear could hit me or feel this bad
Thanks