Instead of writing...here's my latest youtube video :)

[belle]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RWXwJiF-Aik

[allergyphobia]

sarah, i felt really crap when i came home from work today... watched this vid then some of your ones about shopping and dresses and it really made me smile... thank you x

[nomorepanic]

Lovely update Sarah

[belle]

Thank you
It's amazing how a divorce can make you change, for the better. At the time i felt like hell, no way out, i'd rather have died than live without him (the abuser that he was)!

http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=50755

[ann01]

Really enjoyed watching your video, well done.

[Antonio2301]

Excellent video belle .. enjoyed watching that .. its good to see your well on the way to recovery .. Antonio

[PUGLETMUM]

nice one sarah - well done you, and glad you got someone nice and dumped the jerk who made you feel worse, when you felt bad already

[belle]

Emmas....Still around my love? How have you been doing? x

[PUGLETMUM]

hey sarah, i think ill always be around hun. i keep coming back just to stay connected to ppl who know how it feels - but sometimes feels very quiet on the forum? im getting there sarah slowly, but i cant lose this thought that im totally on my own and i need more love and compassion - i dont know if you or anyone gets that feeling - maybe its coz my mum died and ive not really felt cared for since - but it holds me back, and if i let my mindfulness practice slip because im busy, which i did last week - BANG im back allowing that voice to take over and i believe what it says - consequently i gave into it on sunday night and decided i wasnt going to go to center parcs on the monday -so im now trying very very hard to take care of myself and not make things worse for myself, god this process is long and torturous (is that a word?) i remember sitting here before feeling like this after id avoided something big - i loved your youtube vid, and i loved the way you look happier, i know you are still struggling but you look different - your face isnt as stressed - im pleased for youx id like to keep intouch sarah, if you want - whats best way of doing that if you want? i mean you are on the computer right? but maybe not on nmp, so where are you on-line?