Well I have suffering from anxiety for about 4 weeks now and the GP has prescribed me citalopram, 20mg, which I am now in my 4the week of taking. I had a baby 6 weeks ago.
Anyway, my fixation was around having caught HIV since my maternal screening which was negative in November 2009 and I was convinced I had it. Anyway today I went to see a sexual health councillor and I plucked up the courage to take an rapid HIV test which was negative, much to my releif.
However, my mind has taken another irrational leap and has started thinking what if the needle and syringe was not a new one and that the councillor is one of these crazy people who want to infect people. I saw the needle in the packet and the syringe (I think). But when I have blood taken I have to look away as dont like to watch the needle go in. So my mind is saying 'what if' when I wasnt looking he swapped the clean syringe and needle for a dirty one with infected blood in it!!
Totally daft I know, but it means if I cant get past this thought I need to wait another 3 months to do another test. I am being silly arent I?