Hi guys
things are still the same, but doc put me on zispin got to have one everynight working up to 2 tabs, but they are making me dopey and tired, so this has lowered my mood alot, ive been on a couple of AWOLs. do they really take the pain away.
im not aloud to keep them doc gave them to lea to give me. wish they would start working soon nearly had a fight with customer to day had to walk out for a few mins. plus steve is still nasty to me, sat down the other night in tears and tried to work out how i could live if i left him, the answer is i couldnt my wages wouldnt do anything, if i could take my dogs i want to move to florida as it is cheap over there. im not even allowed the cash card. cars running on fumes at the min.
people said this depression would go as soon as the money was sorted, but it aint. its only cos lea is here that i havent done something stupid its been in my mind and ive come close, but she keeps me going. dont know why cos i dont think im worth it. and havent go much of a life.
soz just wanted to post it helps my feelings even if no ones there.
soz
susie