Re: i still check
It's fine to check your poo, it's a good way of telling where your body is at, but please don't continue to cut yourself like blueangel says.
Once you've had a peek, you should flush it straight down, and get on with your day.
I hope your counselling comes up quick so you can start to control these feelings.
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