LEAVE ME SLEEPING

I wake everyday like a new hero born,
Whilst hiding my pride where it's tattered and torn.
A nightmare I feel lurking somewhere within,
A trial I must master, a battle to win.

Locked in my home far away from your eyes,
I bury my anguish, and muffle my cries.
No-one aware of my internal fight,
My door keep this monster away from your sight.

It seems like forever since once I was free,
Now left all alone with no future to see.
My dreams in the night are so hard to resist,
The faces of friends that will always be missed.

Yet soon comes the day and my plight does return,
This difficult lesson I somehow must learn.
The man I once was, and the one I now face,
One locked up in dreams, and one hid in disgrace.

I live out this curse as it tries hard to shame me,
Poisoned by tablets that struggle to tame me.
Blinded by faith, I continue alone,
To find self assurance, and fight the unknown.

Bound and restricted, my choices are few,
Such fear and resentment in all that I do.
Yet cannot let go of the one hope I hold,
A life yet to live for, a story untold.

My trial will continue until I can find,
A reason to claim back the rest of my mind.
Onward I march every hour in the day,
To search for a sign that will show me the way.

Till then, I shall live in my dreams when I sleep,
A place of no torment, or reason to weep.
Eventually life and it's hardships will take me,
Till then leave me sleeping, and don't try to wake me.......

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