Feeling so low at the moment, my relationship broke down one week ago after 3.5 years. I have built my life in the place I am now around my ex and he was my best friend. I don't feel like I have anything to look forward to and feel very frightened about the future.

I know that I am lucky in some respects. I have a house, horse and car, but I feel like the largest and most important aspect of my life is now missing - having that closeness.

I feel like I am a bad person because my family are trying to support me and cheer me up but I feel like they don't bring the same happiness to me that my ex did. Does that sound really horrible?

I have been doing ok up until tonight - I just suddenly feel absolutely awful and in so much pain emotionally. I am frightened my depression/anxiety is going to return and plummet worse than last time.

I am only 29 years old and feel like I will never be happy again.