About two months ago my wife and I were out riding bikes.. I was perfectly fine and no issues about anxiety or anything.
Then I hurt my pudendal nerve and also my coccyx .I started having muscle spasms in my back that hurt through my groin in my private area and also rectum..
I had already stopped taking a really low dose of librium because frankly I didn't think it made a difference and i didn't want to go to the doctor to get refills..It was only 10mg a day for years and years..
Well I made the mistake of reading the withdrawal symptoms but still I tried not to dwell on them.Some days were fine others I would get a little anxious and then I called my old doctor and explained we had moved away and she called in one last refill before I have to see another doctor.
I had been off of them for about a month.. and have had all kinds of weird feelings and thoughts.. From anxious to weird totally weird.
Im not sure reading the withdrawals had anything to do with it or not.I even contacted another doctor and asked about geting off of them and he said the way I had done it was correct and that I shoudn't have any issues other than maybe a little anxiety and sleeplessness.
I did what he said the way he said and well..I started getting really anxious..don't know if it was lack of med or self induced..
I started taking it again and now im starting to feel even anxious now and having weird thoughts sweep over me during the hours of the day and evenings most days.I even went out today hoping to know I was ok but was a little anxious driving around.
I thought if I was taking it again I should start feeling better and in some ways I have and others no..I am worried maybe the lack of the drug and then starting to use it again is making me have weird thoughts and feel anxious.
I don't know what to think. I know I should contact a therapist or something but wanted to see if I could be ok on my own..I am trying really hard but don't know if im just losing it or maybe its just the anxiety of knowing that I could now have side effects from starting to take it again after a month.. might be affecting me.
Did I mess my mind up getting off of it and now taking it again or is this just anxiety about the whole thing.. causing me to feel this way?