hi guys,,
i have had alot of coversation with TVZOE from channal 4 who wants to make a programme on agarophobia ,,
she wanted to come and see me today to make a short film about me to take back with her, the dr who they are working with is one of the top docs in the country now surely anyone refuseing to see him must be CRAZY right,,
the thing is i have told no-one about my problem no family only 1-2 friends and they deserted me,,i dont think i could deal with the exposure EVERONE knowing,,,but am i silly cause at the end of the day if someone truly wants to get better they shouldnt care what people think right???????????????
i do truly and honestly want to get better but i have dealt with this on my own and feel i am making progress,,i know this dr is one of the best in the country but how can he claim to make you better in just a fortnight filming with you??
i have had this condition 8-10 years and cant imagine it going in just 1 fortnight,,
plaese could you give me some advice cause right now i feel pretty guity for not talking this oppertunity to help myself get better,,
i text her this morning saying i have changed my mind and didnt want to do it,,
thanks,
trevor,
better to fight for something than to live for nothing