I can't cope anymore :(

[Jj8]

I really can't fight this anymore I just don't know who to turn to, the symptoms are just destroying my life and when I think I'm getting better something pops up to knock me back down I can't stop crying :( I had a cold three weeks ago and now I have another one (if it is a cold) I keep thinking I have something terribly wrong sometimes I get air hunger and have a twitch in my right leg, I just can't find the strengh to be strong anymore and if I'm not worrying about my health then I just feel fed up with life and depressed, I had councelling but it obviously didn't work :( think I'm beyond help...

[Em.ma]

I feel exactly the same as you. It's horrible. I got a cold on xmas day and ever since then have had horrible dizziness and headaches. I havnt got out properly for 3 days now. I'm going down the doctor surgery when my mum does in 30 mins. I dread if i have an infection though being on antibiotics. Im allergic to most and the one i can take gives me terrible gas/indgestion problems.

Dont think for a minute your beyond help? how much counessling did you receive and are you getting anymore? also have you tried medication? maybe you can talk to your GP about it.

[Bellabel]

Don't ever feel that you are beyond help, we all have our dark patches where it seems hopeless....but you've got through it before & you will again.

[Jj8]

Hi there
sorry I have just tried to sleep can't bring myself to do much more at the moment, I had counselling for 5 months and it just made me even more depressed talking about things that I didn't really want to on top of battling with the symptoms I was experiancing at the time, I have never tried meds I'd be too scared to take them. I'm just fed up of feeling ill all the time it's horrible, I have tiredness a bad throat and every where aches I feel so weak do u think this is flu? Hope u are all feeling better x

[Em.ma]

Im the opposite i find talking really helps me
I really think you sound like you have flu and muscle pains from being tense all the time
i just saw my doctor and he told me i have sinus problems (which is causing the dizziness) and he recommended i keep active through exercise. Im on the waiting list for counessling but the waiting list is 3 months :(
hope you feel better soon.

[Temenos]

Sorry you're having a rough time......me too I'm afraid, could it be this time of year I wonder!!! I've had a sore throat for weeks now!!! and had (slight) bleeding nose and now I think I've got itching all over!! Of course I am so scared that it's a blood disorder or something!!!! Beginning to take over a lot of my thoughts, the HA is back!!! but I'll get through it again!!!!! I know I will and you all will too xx

[scaredycatx]

Hey.
Sorry to hear you are going through a bad time at the moment.
I am too unfortunately and so just wanted to let you know that you are not alone.
Like the post above says I really think it could be to do with the time of the year, it certainly hasn't helped me.....off work so change in routine (I'm better when I'm busy), colds and flu everywhere, and Christmas time where you are forced to socialise and pretend everything is fine.

I am exactly the same as you health anxiety wise, as soon as one thing stops another starts and I just keep going round in circles and wonder when it will ever end. Some days I can stay really postive and feel focused and optomistic about the future and other days (like today for me) I'm just drowning in it and it seems like anxiety is a big monster too big to fight.

This is just a set back though - we have improved before and we will again. It just takes time I guess. And because loads of illnesses are flying around at the moment if we get a cold etc it will just send our anxiety into over drive and think even a simple common cold is a mysterious sinister illness.

Although I can't offer any real help, I just wanted to let you know that I feel the same.

Have you tried CBT? I had group sessions and found them good and interesting.

Take care and best wishes
Amyx

[Temenos]

Thanks for your thoughts Amy, I haven't tried CBT but if I could pluck up courage, I would love to try a group, just reading other people's experiences on here helps me so much and I guess this would be similar. I went out last night (really didn't want to but couldn't let people down) on the work xmas do...... I ended up really enjoying it and guess what........my health symptoms didn't bother me once, I didn't even think that I was a person that is ill having a good time, I was just a person having a great time (amazingly)!!! If you get the opportunity to get out of the house, give
it a go, I know it's hard but it can pay off. On a final note....Happy New Year to all on the Forum, let's hope we can keep the HA under control in 2011!!

[JessG]

Same here. I have bee n out of a job got almost 2 years, and I have no medical insurance, so as much as I need to visit the doc and a therapist, i simply cannot afford it. Some days are so bad I hope i die, just to stop worrying about it.