Back after a long break
Hello everyone,
Some may remember me from earlier on last year. I was having trouble, I suffer from Depression and OCD. I stopped coming on here...not as a conscious decision but just because I became very busy with my new job and kind of wanted to forget about my problems. Keeping busy only keeps problems at bay for a while.... I was referred by the counsellor at my doctors to see a mental health nurse at the psychology department about my ocd and intrusive thoughts. When I first started to see her my thoughts were pretty much at bay and the last session we had she made it pretty clear that she didnt feel it necessary for me to keep seeing her as now the nhs are not going to keep people on the books if they are not in a bad way?? I felt very upset and a bit rejected because I know that my depression and ocd comes in cycles. When I explained this she said she took me on because of my intrusive thoughts because thats what she is involved in. I understand that but for me its much more about my intrusive thoughts which even she understands because she has explained to me that she feels I have issues which are separated from my intrusive thoughts and may be the cause of the intrusive thoughts.
Any way thats where I have been, over the past 2 weeks I have felt down and a bit upset. I think this might be because I have forgotten to take my anti depressants quite regularly lately but also because I feel my busy period at work has come to an end and a bit scared I will see it all again!
Thanks for listening or reading
Laura x
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