Hello everyone, I've been aware of this forum for a little while but finally decided to join.
My fiance and partner of 5 years was diagnosed with GAD about a year and a half ago. Before he got ill, when we got engaged, he had a few issues with anxiety but they have been nowhere near as bad as they are now, as he has been out of work since he got ill. He's on meds and tried counselling and seems a lot better but still can't face getting back to work.
I'm 24, and finding supporting him really, really tough; emotionally, and financially, since we live together. I feel frustrated as I want to do more with my life, the biggest thing being starting my own business but I can't, as the only wage earner keeping a roof over our heads, I have no money to save with. I love him, but I didn't choose to be in this situation. I don't know what I should be feeling. I'm hoping to get some proper counselling for myself to talk about how I feel because I have real problems discussing this with friends - apart from the fact that they just don't really understand what this is like, I feel bad burdening people with my feelings - and I can't talk to my partner about this either because he has enough to deal with.
Is anyone here in a similar situation? I feel terribly alone with what we are going through and I have come to terms with the fact that I can't just struggle on trying to be the strong one when really I'm not doing very well in myself. I have suffered from depression in the past so I'm worried about me too :( I feel incredibly selfish writing this because I know it's nothing compared to what he's going through.
Sorry, this post has been a real splurge. Thank you for reading x