Hope this helps someone

[linworth]

Hi,

I wasnt really sure where to post this, but here goes..
I have not been on here or a while, just check in everynow again for a bit of reassurance, but just wanted to tell you my story and road to recovery, in the hope it can help someone.
I have suffered anx and dep many years ago when i lost my baby and also after my second child, who is now nearly six, but had been well for over 5 years, still taking anti d's but missing days out for a couple of years, anyway in April this year after a stressful time ( but have been through worse) i had a panic attack at night, i was giving up smoking and was really stressed at work and home, i was lay in bed had the shaking, and felt like something bad was going to happen, it passed and i went back to sleep, but that sent me on a spiral, thinking it was all coming back, constant thoughts, couldnt think of anything else, completely lost my confidence, couldnt go to work, ( ran out crying) panicing going into shops (never had that before ) couldnt sleep, eat, socialise anything, constant thoughts of everything was bad, although i knew logically it wasnt, anyway doc then increased my dose of setraline, sent me over the edge, (just me super sensisitive to them) thought i was dying, losing my mind, horrendous de-personalisation or whatever its called, i went to emergency docs convinced i would be sectioned, he told me straight away to reduce back down to my normal dose, had a couple of weeks on very low mood, but gradually picked up, eventually went back to work, went on holiday, ithink my last major attack was the day i was going, started seeing my friends again, started doing everything that scared me, dont get me wrong it was very hard, and some days were awful, and i still have bad days, crisis of confidence etc.. like is it going to come back, mind chatter, etc.. But what i wanted to say is, I actually hit 40 on Boxing day and had a big 40th birthday party, with everyone there, was on the dancefloor, made a speech it was brilliant, i would never have thought 6 months ago i would be where I am now and I just wanted to say ;you WILL get better, it will take time but it will happen, i think i will always have a bit of anx, its the way I am but I am enjoying life and very thankful.
Take care and Happy New Year x

[Veronica H]

Glad you had a great birthday. Facing the fear after panic is the only answer ultimately, and thanks for sharing your success with us.

Veronicax

[faith2011]

Thanks, Its good to hear success stories.

[olderfella]

Very pleased for you lin hope you remain healthy and anxiety & panic free

[Panic33]

Great to read
Just to second you will get better. I used to post on this site all the time, to be honest it got be through some of the worst times - even got to the point where I was questioning if it was worth living. I only suffered for just over 6months, but it was a nightmare, panic attacks after panic attack every day , most of the time. Anyway to cut a long story short, I have been anxiety free for nearly 12months and have had a great year. Please don't give up there is light at the end of the tunnel, its just not easy to know that when you are in the middle of it.

[jothenurse]

panic 33: What do you think helped you get well?

[Lucy]

This is so inspiring to hear Well done and thank you for sharing your story.

[happycamper]

Hi linworth,

Thanks for an inspiring post and a belated happy 40th!

I've made huge steps over the last 6 months also, for some reason 2011 is starting badly for me but I guess it's the post Xmas, gloomy days feeling....hence searching for positive posts like yours!

Clare X

[JT69]

Hey Lynne,

Lovely positive post...am so pleased for you!!! Long may it continue.

Belated happy 40th hun!!

Take care.
JO.xx

[barbn]

So good to hear!! And inspiring to those who are really struggling! I am one of those that will more than likely have anxiety/depression for the remainer of my life. But, I know it is controllable for me through a variety of measures, medication, diet, exercise...I havea a few bad days, but mainly good days!! ;-)