Hi all
I've followed posts on here about tocophobia in the past, but thought it was time I started one of my own...
My husband and I have just been referred to a fertility clinic to help us try for a baby....however, there are several issues 1) I'm REALLY scared of pregnancy 2) I'm PETRIFIED of giving birth 3) my husband would rather not have children! To top it off I have a needle phobia, so the thought of epidurals, drips, injections really scares me also. I feel like I'm going completely mad most of the time because one half of me really wants a baby, but the other half holds me back because of this stupid phobia of pregnancy and birth My husband is willing to go along with all of this to keep our relationship together (he loves me to bits), but if he had the choice he'd rather we just stayed as a couple, and didn't become a family. If all goes to plan with the fertility treatment I could very likely be pregnant within the next couple of months and I'm absolutely terrified - even though it's what I want...see...I feel like I'm going crazy!! My final prob is that I'm 38 (39 this year!) so I don't have much time to waste and the clinic are keen to get things going....