I am so fed up with everything, fed up with being so ill with flu and chest infection been going nearly to weeks now. Sitting around doing nothing, too much time thinking which isnt good. So much has happened what with my cousins wife dying xmas eve leaving to young children is so sad. They never got a xmas. Then not being very well it just seems never ending...

Why her she has a family to look after. Shouldve been me ive never wanted to be here!!

Now i am behind in my studies and work have loads to catch up on, but being so ill havent been able to concentrate!!

Just want things back to normal am so tired need some sleep but cant sleep as cant lie down and keep coughing!!

Oh well just better get better soon.

On top of this worrying about finding somewhere to live as have to move and havent found anything yet!!

too much going on!