hi all
i'm very excited that i am going to india for a wedding and a few weeks exploring this summer - i started getting anxiety attacks before a big 5 month south america trip 18 months ago but went anyway not recognising what they were
after more worsening anxiety and a hospital spell i finally got home to a meaningless life of fear guilt and hopelessness - i had a good job to come back to, lots of good friends, a great flat in a great city - no reason to be scared or down but was a shaking wreck for months - getting back to work was a challenge but i knew it was so important for me - none of my friends have been lost - in fact my being open has brought a lot of stories out of the woodwork
over a year later i have flown to the alps for skiing trips - still shakey but i try to ignore it - these trips i have been really scared of but were great in the end
as for the india trip - this is my return - travel to far flung lands has been my escape and adventure for years so crashing on my last trip felt like the end of a big part of my life - i am excited rather than scared - i will accept the trip as it comes, anxiety and all, but i will put good odds on it being as exciting as it ever was
if you do it despite the anxiety, the anxiety will get less and less - the first times have to be a leap of faith that you can cope even if you don't enjoy it - once you know you can survive you can begin to enjoy the next time
enough of my good times
go and have some of your own
good luck jos x