Hi Everyone,
I have had a really good week. Saying that things are good isn't something I really find easy, but I guess that's part of the reason I ended up with anxiety in the first place. I am a glass half empty person !!
I spent 3 years struggling with anxiety. It was a struggle as it affected everything, my work, relationships, children, social life...you name it and it was a problem.
My latest issues came to a head last august when I lost the plot on holiday, and on return to work I was really struggling.
When I went to the GP we discussed medication. It was something I had resisted for years before. I was absolutely adamant that I had to beat this on my own, without medication. To cut a long story short, I started on amitriptylline in December. I have noticed over the last month that I am less tearful, and I am happier and have more to say. It was difficult to know whether it was the medication working......it doesn't wave a flag and say "right, i'm working now" !!
I am waffling on, but basically, the medication has got me on the second rung of the ladder and I now have the confidence to do things that I know will beat my anxiety.
I visit people at home at work, and for a year I have been unable to do this due to major anxiety. This week I done a home visit. It was 1.5 hours long......my ultimate nightmare before, but I done it, and didn't feel anxious at all.
I just wanted to post this as I have read many different threads where some members have suggested that medication is just going to mask the anxiety. It made me question whether I was a bit of a "fake".....did I really have the right to celebrate my achievements if they came with the aid of medication?
But I have to say that I feel great, I don't care how I got here, I'm just pleased I am on the right track, and if that came with the help of a few tablets then so be it.....If you need them and they help then great.
I'm not trying to get everyone on medication, I just think it's good to read some positive stories about medication as I was beginning to question whether I was doing the right thing.
Onwards and upwards !! Good Luck,