Hi, I'm new to the forum and just like say how useful it's been during the dark times. Without being boring, my potted history is I became very depressed and stressed two years ago and following two years on citalopram, changing my job and life enjoyed life to the full in 2010. Then my old friend depression started to return in Jan after trying to come the cit. After going back on the cit anxiety has returned to my life full on, I've really tried but finally gave in and went back to my doctors after the anxiety hit it's peak and 8 weeks of cit was making me worse. I am now taking Lustral first day today and scared of repeating the last 8 weeks again only to find no benefit. I don't understand how I got to this point again. If any one has any reassurance or words of wisdom I'd be so grateful, also any tips on dealing with crushing anxiety I get in the morning which take most of the day to subside.