I stopped taking my ad's a good 6 months ago and Im back here again. All I want to do is cry all the time for no reason and start panicing when Im in public as I dont want anyone to see me. I cant stand being around other people, I just feel they are judging and laughing at me and I cant relax. I know Im weird. Im sick of people, why cant they just get over it when its me who has to live with it. The suicidal thoughts are back again, but this time I cant pinpoint what has set me off. Im just sick of myself, forever feeling anxious, and my pathetic life.