It been a while this site help me seek help for my self and now I my daughter is finaly getting help as well. I had many people tell me that i didn't sound like I had OCD and that my daughter didn't have it either. I have been on med's for about 8mth now and just recently I have been finding that even thoe I can now keep up with the house work I cant stop wanting to clean nothing feel clean despite knowing it's clean. I always knew had feelings that things would never be clean no matter how much I cleaned thing's but was to scared to be obsessive around my kids. My fear of showing my symptoms has basic gone and now I'm left to deal with the issues that start me feeling like I have no control. I realised I have number issues and dirt issues and I have been testing my self on how anxious I can get if I dont do what I thinking I want to do or should do. I do almost every thing in set's of 2 and the other morning I tested my self doing every thing with out letting my self do things in set of 2 I brushed my hair 2 time on one side and once on the other and made my self put the brush down and walk away I keeped wanting to go back and found that funny to start with but as the morning went on and the more I tryd not to do things in set's of 2 either by going to 3 or stopping at 1 the more agitated I got and then it became not so funny anymore and I couldn't stop thinking about what I do and how I do it and how often I feel the need to do things in set's of 2 I ended up out the front of my house pacing and to feel better.as the day went on the more I tryed to avoid the number 2 if I tapped I would stop on 3 and i didn't feel good about it at all by lunch time I was ready to run home and hide and yet nothing bad had happened that day other than trying to avoid doing things in 2's. that night I helped a friend clean her house and i was fine but when I came home and made tea was finding my self clean things as soon as thay were dirty and wanting to clean the counter over and over and wash my hand's after cutting each diffent vegetable I made roast veg with seasening and then meat balls and then just some simple veg with flaver and each time I prepared the next part of tea I realised I had put all the spices ect away and I had to get them out again for the next thing in stead I leaving the one's out I still needed. Even after the kitchen looked clean at glance I wanted to keep cleaning I keep finding something els to clean and for some reason when I cleaned some I also found my self starting to clean the same counter that had been clean heaps already and I stopped my self and still felt like I want to clean the stove and the wall behind the stove ect even thoe I it should have seemed cleaned it didn't feel clean to me. In the begining when I found my self cleaning with out thinking about it it was cool it made me happy that I didn't have to convince my self that it had to be done. It's starting feel more like I cant not stop thinking about clean when I'm home now. I'm even finding that I'm seeing thing's as not clean enough more and more and I'm now concerned that this will become a new obsession with me this is the one thing I have alway been scared would happen if I gave in to my feeling of cleaning thing's. I can handle seeing things messed up after I cleaned them. I have alway had to walk away when I found my self wanting to make my kids keep thing's to neat or in a set way. I'm worried I'm even getting the kids to for fill my need to clean to much and I'm finding it harder and harder to be around them with out wanting to ask them if some thing is clean. I dont want to live in a show home I want my house to look clean but lived in. I cant even enjoy seeing my kid picture on my wall some day's even thou I love the picture I want to some how make it feel better or find a better place for it ect. I keep all there picture's thay do at school but thay are in boxes under the bed. I'm forevea upsetting my kids cause I dont want them to put things on the wall in the main living area's. I try so hard to let them display there picture'