Well, things are fast going down hill, talk about a turn for the worst from the semi-positive from yesterday.., while i could handle a sandwhich yesterday morning now I'm struggling on anything remotely thick, even my gaviscon.
Currently the only source of any energy i'm getting is from Dunn's River Nurishment drinks, i've absolutely no idea if this will sustain me in the longrun.
Every time i put something in my mouth and chew, i can feel butterflies in my stomach and i become extremely agitated - instead of chewing something like a biscuit for a while then swallowing, i find myself chewing until the mush is beyond mush and then i freak out and have to spit it out.
I know this is down to my panic problem, but i've lived 29 years without any trouble eating, and within just a single week i feel like i no longer have the ability to swallow solids at all.
Please, somebody, help..
I am seeing my GP later today, he's most likely going to tell me what i already know, that "he cant force me to swallow", that "it's just because your stressed out", but how am i supposed to not be stressed out when i have been starving hungry for days but cant get enough inside me to stop the feeling of panic i get from being hungry in the first place?
I've tried breathing techniques and they work fine but the moment foods back in my mouth i'm off again..
I'm going to be practically begging my gp to prescribe me citalopram, but even then i don't even know if citalopram would help my issue, has anyone here experienced trouble eating that went away with cit?
I am in desperate need of your encouragement and kind words, i was sat with my partner this morning, in her arms, crying my eyes out and telling her i was sorry, because i feel like i may not be on this world much longer..