Hey. I been suffering from really bad anxeity the last few weeks, worse then normal. This means I didn't let my parents go to the beach for Easter as I just couldn't face the car journey. Now, I been struggling to go to work ( work at weekends) and then today was my first day back at uni ( had 4 weeks off) and i drove there, as its 20mins from my house that I live with parents, managed the library to pick up some books but couldn't go to my lesson and drove all the way home again. I was so ashamed I parked on a side way and spent the next hour and so ( which would have been spent at uni) on phone to friend, readiing so mum would think I went. I dunno what to do as have uni tomoz again. I wanna go, just whole journey there I felt so uncomfortable, like I was suddenly going to flip and go crazy and just needed to return home, return back. When I got to uni, all I could think about was getting back home... running away.. I was going to flip. I feel so crazy and lost. I have had panic attacks since I was 16, but now it's the thoughts that scare me and they have only come the last few months. At home I feel better but still not 100% and I just have to find things to do al the time. I feel like there is no point living when it is like this. I am turning 20 in a month, so should be enjoying life but how it is atm, I really am not!