I woke this morning feeling pretty low, waking too early and worrying over changes at my work that are a bit beyond my control. I'm not used to feeling down, but I started to become concerned that this waking early was maybe a sign of descent into depression, despite the fact that I've never suffered this affliction (panic is enough to be going on with!) Before I knew it, my thoughts were blazing ahead toward a panic attack - what if I burst into tears at work today? What if I broke down in a meeting? What if I just suddenly went mute? Or was found wandering around the carpark behaving erratically? Silly stuff, but at the time it seemed almost a real possibility. I let the panic wash over me and it was pretty tough going. It took quite a while (hours) to feel anything like my normal self.
Still, I got through it and the thought of my fellow sufferers on this website was a big reassurance. I knew these irrational thoughts were something that a lot of us have to put up with before, during and after an attack. I'm feeling much improved now, and am pleased that I handled a bad episode well and got back on my feet quickly. So keep going everyone and keep posting to this great site!
Jim