wow reading through your posts is like looking in a mirror!
i too suffer from anxiety, and the fear of anxiety and the fear of the symptoms and the fear of the panic attacks and the fear of the fear!! i walk around all day every day thinking of my anxiety, which is the worst thing you can do, but also the only think you feel you can do?
i analyse my feelings/symptoms 24/7, always thinking theres something wrong with me or something bads going to happen?...
even something little like a twitch in my chest i get soo scared and panic! and the funny thing is iv been to my GP so many times and read up on anxiety disorders/panic disorders/health disorders that i know everything there is too know, and yet i still worry!?
trying to stop the obsessive thoughs is easier said that done!
but what i would say to you is, you have this beautiful baby coming in to your life very soon, just focus your thoughts on that! and how much joy this baby is going to bring you! you can put all your love and energy in to loving and caring for your baba
Take-care
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