Hi all,
Long time since i've posted...so sorry but i just dont know where to post anymore as im really depressed...ive locked myself up in my flat and i have no reason to go out and well when i do goo out i dont like it at all i think people are staring at me, i get a tight chest and i have troubles breathing... so anyway ive came on to post a peom as i can only write them when im heart broken and really depressed so i've been a writing machiene they are all just pooring out off me one after another...
hope you understand who im feeling with these poems....
Empty Space
Why bother when no one cares at all
Slowly and surely all your pieces start to fall.
Your friends are gone all drifted to a far away place
But when you need their help the most all you have is empty space.
Gone is the laughter, all the smiles and tears
Everything you never wanted to happen has turned into all your worst fears.
All you can do is break down and cry
Rock yourself to sleep asking every damn day why.
They were suppose to be with you until you took your final breath,
But instead all you have are pictures, cards, and a bracelet
Its all so depressing, so totally lost in pain
Its so hard to move on, all just cycling down the drain.
Help!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can you help me wash away this pain?
Or are my feelings destined to stay the same?
All I want is for me to finally feel a change
and I need your help along the way
I've tried before to do this myself
and learned that there's no doing it without help
since no one else cares enough to know
I've come to find any support you'll show
never did I want it coming to this
I thought I could do it on my own
but that just led me deeper into crap
a wonderer with no where to roam
so I've asked for you to walk by my side
and to help turn me around
please just take your hand in mine
and lead me to what I've not found
I've learned through my mistakes that I am not enough
so I finally decided to reach out
I know from experience this will be tough
as I'm still searching for what this life's all about
never have I reached out for help before
I thought I could do everything alone
now I know I've never needed help more
take me down, my thoughts are dethroned
I'm blinded now, its hard to see
and confused as to where I am
just let me know that you believe
let me know you think I can
turn everything I feel around
and wash my worries away
help me find something so profound
I won't feel this one more day
you can help me be a better person
I'm ready to do this, take my hand
and we'll fight the stormy weather
I just thought i'd share with you all as im so alone and i have no one to love anymore as that all went down the drain with everything else...maybe im not ment to be happy...i think that i'm suppose to be on my own for the rest of my life just me all alone in the horrible crappy world...i'm just so so sorry that i'm not as strong as people thought i was...i have tried god have i tried so hard its amazing how hard i have tried but im still yet again all alone sat on my bed on the pc talking on the internet with internet friends who just dont get how low i am...iutsd like i'm screaming for help and people just aren't hearing me its like im in a soundproof room and everyone just carries on with their everyday life and then one day they would be like ...."where's that girl i used to talk to on the internet?" and i would be gone and no one would know at all that i have left this dreadfull place and i'm in eternal sleep...i'm so sorry that i've came back with a bad post but it's just how i'm feeling and i cant hide it as ts eating away at me.
Hope everyone is ok!
Hugs for everyone
Kym
xux
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