Help, do I have OCD?

[FM]

Just wondering if I have a form of OCD. A couple years back I started having this one thought of suicide. I would never ever commit suicide, but the very thought me doing so bothers me. The thought affected me on some days, it didn't really disrupt my everyday behaviour. Only when it really bothered me did I worry alot about it, and it got in the way of my normal life for a couple days. It eventually went away, but now after a good 8 months or more, it came back a few months ago. Does this mean I have OCD, or just am bothered by that thought?

[mum2four]

I think it's worth talking to your Dr about as a fue years back I had a image of me jumping our of a moving car because something bad was being talk about on the radio and wanted to make it go away. The image scared me so much that I locked my car door so fast and sat still in my seat and was unable to move at all. That would have been about 7 years ago I think and since then the images and thought have been getting worse thay got so bad that I was afraid of doing my dishes for fear of some how stabing my kids or I feared walking over bridged cause of these intence images of me or my kids falling off or being puched or jumping off ect. I dismissed the images to start with as suicide thought's and got treatment for depression. The images and fear took of my life with out me even realising it till last year when I found my self wanting to rock in my kitchen with my kids at the table waiting for tea and felt so stuck it was not funny at all. I finaly convinced my self to get treatment for anxiety and about a month or so after being on med I finaly asked if I may have OCD and told my dr why I thought I might and doubled my dose that very day lol that kinda told me there was a hign chance it was OCD I started seeing a phycologist and very recently was finaly able to talk about my issues and he said I was obsessive compulsive.

I think it's alway better to ask and talk about it rather than just try to convince you self your over reacting or what eva. OCD can get stonger if left undiagnoised and untreated better to get an answer NOW than later I think.

[jackie]

s claire weekes says, when we are tired our thoughts do not flo as they should , some of the gloomier thoughts stick making us feel we are going insane or that the thoughts are actually true. but it is only because we are tired and under pressure and when we are less so our thoughts will flow again freely

i really dont think this means ocd unless there are other signs

jackie

[FM]

Jackie, I realise the only time I do have the thoughts, or remember them from the past are when I am tired or low on energy. When I feel really energetic and alive, I feel great. I really have no other obessional thougth either. Thanks for your suggestions guys!

[FM]

Just to update, i'm still having this problem, and it goes and comes. I'm good one week, and I feel like I have no worries at all, but another week comes along, and I'm worrying again. I feel like i'm going insane at times! I try working out and rigourous exercise which seems to be calmine me down, but the thought still bothers me if I think about it too much. Any advice? Am I just worried, or could this be a disorder? I feel like such a normal person, with this wall of worrying in front of me.

[scoobygirl2005]

Hi.

I think in my opinion that you may have some form of OCD. But it is nothing to be ashamed of and you are still a normal person. Hundreds and thousands of people have it, its not uncommon at all and so you're not alone.

Have you been to your doctor by any chance? Because that may help. And if you feel alone then just come on this site or talk to a friend about it, it may help. We are all here for you.

I have ocd for about a year. At first when I first noticed the symptoms I said to myself no it can't be and then I began to research it some more on the net, I though I was like the only one with it and that your not normal if you have it. But thats not true at all, you are normal and there is a lot of support out there, just take a look at this site there are loads of bits of helpful information. Hope this helps. And if you haven't been to your doctor about this yet then go because honestly it may help you and you will feel better afterwards.

Scooby2005.

[FM]

Thanks for your reply Scooby2005.

By chance, do you think it could be just worrying? I worry alot about it at times, but I think it just because I fear I could have a mental illness. Worrying alot doesn't mean a mental illness, does it?

Sorry if I am asking too many questions, but I honestly don't think I have OCD, there's no compulsive behaviours or any other thought that bothers me the same way.

[scoobygirl2005]

Hi.

Thats ok with the questions ask away. It could be that you may just have mild ocd or even mild anxiety. Its nothing to worry about, yours sounds mild. Have you spoken to your doctor? Because that really is the best thing you can do.

I was scared to go to my doctor at first but now I have been I realise that it was the right thing to do, they will diagnose your problem for you and they will perhaps refer you to someone else that specialises in things like that.

You must know though its nothing to be ashamed off, lots of people have ocd and anxiety. We're all here for you.

Scooby2005.

[FM]

Sometimes the anxiety is mild or gone, but other times it's pretty severe, in my opinion. I won't be able to do much, when i'm panicing about it. When i'm worrying about it alot, I won't be able to hang with my friends, or go out anywhere, until the worrying subsides.

[scoobygirl2005]

Have you talked to your friends about it? They will understand am sure and if they don't understand give them some information off this site that should help them.

You should really go to your doctor as they may be able to help you. You will feel so much better once you have spoken to people about it.

Scooby2005.