and it IS hard work... but i am plodding on...
but i am now regularly eating things that 'may contain traces of nuts/sesame'... including bakery bread, cakes, bake your own bread etc.
also a big achievement for me last weekend was eating fish and chips from the CHIPPY... i haven't done this for probably 2 years near enough, because i was terrifed they would use peanut oil etc... i also ate mushy peas from there and a delicious pickled egg ... my boyfriend went and picked them up, i asked no questions i just ate!
also eating italian style meats now with added spices etc with no problems... cous cous with added flavours etc...marinades...
i ate a takeaway bacon and egg buttie from a cafe... another big fear
i managed to stay calm(ish) with a little help from NMP when i discovered a sesame seed on my plate during a meal whilst away from home on business.... at one time i would have had a full scale meltdown, going to a+e and everything!
at my grandfathers funeral, i ate sandwiches, pork pie and chips from a buffet that i had no idea what was in things or anything
i think it's good to look back at what i am achieving... i haven't recorded anything for a while and was starting to think i wasn't battling anymore but i know i am... my partner had a moment with me recently and just said that i am ACCEPTING my phobia and he's just expected to 'deal with it'... that i'm no longer fighting it... i don't think that's true, i'm still trying to push myself, i guess things just don't feel as big as they used to, maybe?
xxx