its been a long time since I posted - though unfortunately my HA has not gone away. To give brief history cancer is my fear - mainly gynae though occasional bc and bowel.
For over 2 years I have had irregular periods - at one point I had a cyst removed all normal. My smears are up-to-date and I had a scan in Jan all normal. My periods for last few months have actually been 'normal'.
But I can't stop worrying and constantly fear bleeding .. I check a bit obsessively and examine the tissue more than any normal person would! Today and sometimes in the past I sometimes find tiny bits of brown - somestimes they almost look like light bits of dirt - its hard to explain, and sometimes I see a tiny bit that looks smeared - its very tiny and I doubt many people would notice but of course I do - it makes me go cold with fear of cancer.
I am having CBT and am on tablets - I am 36 and just feel like my life is slipping away with all this fear. I want another baby but am actually scared to have sex in case I bleed - which I never had! It would almost be funny if not so tragic!
I am reassurance seeking I guess which is probably not healthy - but anyone with any experience of this / positive suggestions / reasurance most welcome!