Hi all
I'm currently having a bad time. I've taken citalopram before, four years ago, and it worked for me. I remember side effect that time, but they didnt go beyond a rough first day.
This time, though, it seems way worse. I'm taking 20mg, same as the previous time. My problem is general anxiety plus occasional panic attacks.
Day 1. Took pill midday or so. No immediate change.
Day 2. Ok in morning, afternoon felt increased dizziness, fatigue and nausea. It was a Sunday so it was less disruptive to put up with.
Day 3. Went to work as usual. OK in morning - ok in the sense of just my usual anxiety. Early evening started to feel increased anxiety, trembling, sweating, legs and arms tinglng, dizziness, restlessness. Had dull headache most of the night. Took a sleeping tablet, managed somehow to sleep very well.
Day 4. Woke up feeling increasingly anxious and with the same symptoms. Stayed off work as didn't feel up to driving. Spent the day feeling waves of anxiety go through my body. Basically my usual symptoms but in overdrive. Feel very weak, uncommunicative with partner, a feeling of just wanting to be left alone.
Also found my mind racing uncontrollably, thoughts - negative ones, "how long will this last?", "what if it doesn't get better?" - constantly in my mind. Appetite also pretty much zero.
Go to bed and have worst night I think I have had in years, an absolute nervous wreck, waves of anxiety, negative thoughts racing through mind, spend the whole night sweating and barely sleeping.
I've just woken up on day five and am wondering whether this is an extreme reaction or the norm., and whether to give it up or reduce my dose.
I don't want to give up, and with reducing my dose I worry that it is just going to mean the same side no but with it taking longer to kick in and for them to go away.
To make things more complicated, for the lastt few years I've been using alcohol to take the edge off the anxiety (although I know it makes things worse long term). Nothing major, a glass or two of wine, but pretty much every night. Last time on cit, I didn't stop drinking. This time, I have stopped, and I suspect that that is contributing to the worse side effects, but would it make this much difference?
I'm worried about how long this will last and whether it is typical. Part of me says "it is normal, just ride it out" whereas another part says "this is much worse than it should be".
Really not in a good place right now. Thanks for listening.