I've always been scared of spiders but up until 8 years ago when we moved to a new house, I had only seen fairly medium spiders, which I was scared of just because of how they ran, but I wasnt constantly thinking about them and panicing. In our new house however we get spiders of the gigantea variety only, and I mean they are big, several inches big, def as big as my hand (Im a fairly small 27 year old female). We've had two this last week in rooms ive never seen spiders in that much before, a spare bedroom and an upstairs toilet. These spiders are bigger even than the ones we've had before, I thought the one I saw last night must be from a joke shop it was that big! I live with my parents and scream for them to kill them, I cant even be close to the little ones let alone these 'big daddy' ones. I have to have them found and killed for me too, as out of sight does not mean they are gone, they are only waiting to emerge again when I least expect it (as Im sure any fellow arachnaphobics will agree). We hadnt had a massive one in ages, since before this week when I;ve seen two of the biggest ever, I had thought that when we got a new kitchen installed last year and had about 30 or so giganteas over a few days that we must have found the breeding ground and eliminated them, but it seems not and Im beside myself!
I havent slept all week, and last night was actually vomiting half the night and shaking uncontrollably (I think I was actually in shock at the size!) and Im at work now terrified to go home tonight, let alone lie down in bed and sleep where im scared one will run over me in the night. We live in a fairly normal house, not a farmhouse or one in the country, we use the spider repellent foams, I never allow windows to be opened, the only thing can think of is that our house isnt all that big so we do have quite alot of stuff in our rooms which Iguess mg=ight mean hiding spaces. Thing is ive asked friends and they say they get spiders but not on the size i describe.
Im at a stage now where I can spend all day terrified of seeing a spider and all night watching everywhere expecting one, and then crying at night cos I cant relax enough from worrying about them to sleep. In short my fear has got pretty serious recently, its like over the years ive been becoming gradually more scared of them rather than less! My reaction is now much worse than it used to be and seeing one can affect me for a long time, not helped by the fact I usually see another one unexpectedly before over seeing the last one! I really feel depressed and scared right now, cos its not like a fear of height where you can simply not go up a height or avoid the object of fear, im def going to see a spider again I just REALLY REALLY dont want to! The fact theyre so darn big and numerous also feels like a cruel joke! Plus my dad thinks im nuts as he isnt particularly bothered by them (altho I have heard him exclaim recently over the size, and last night he said to my mum oh god how am I going to get rid of that!)
Id consider some kind of therapy for this phobia but I do not want to hold a spider on any account, i cant evern stand being in the same house as one let alone room, so I dont think things like Zoo's spider programmes would work on me.
Quite a rant there Im afraid! Ooops, just thought it might be theraputic writing this at the least, as feel at my wits end, feel like such a freak as well as surely its not normal to be this scared
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in fact so does my mum. There was a huge one in the bathroom once and it disappeared and reappeared in my slipper! I got my mum a spider catcher for christmas which is a closing claw/cage/bristly thing on the end of a long stick and you get them then release them somewhere FAR away.
Originally Posted by brambles
